Marshfield, Wis. March 5,
1903
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Miss Florence Minch,
Naperville, Ill.
My dear friend:
I hardly know what I
ought to write this time and did I not firmly believe that you
have a strong faith in God, ready to do His will at any cost,
I would not write at all. Perhaps you misunderstood somewhat
the beginning of my last letter. What I wrote was not exactly
a plan but rather a suggestion. Knowing that you have given
yourself unreservedly into His hands and that He, seeing your
willingness to obey plans your life even to the smallest
details I would not dare to plan unless my plans were in
harmony with His. Since however you have given me an
expression of your respect to me I will not hesitate to write
some things that I would not otherwise. I must confess that
ever since I have known you, you have had the first place in
my affections. It should therefore be no surprise to you that
I made the statement I did in my last letter. But both of us
are young both of us have given ourselves into His hands to be
used as He thinks best so He surely has His plans concerning
our lives. I believe that I have sufficient evidence that He
wants me to spend my life in Africa and I am bending all my
energies toward that one purpose. What He has in store for you
I do not know. If He should make it clear to you that you are
to go with me and you were willing to go I should be most
happy to know it but if otherwise I would not dare to murmur.
I would rather crawl in and out of the most filthy hut of the
most degraded African, alone, away from civilization, and
please Him, than live with the best of companions in a
mansion. I have every reason to believe that you would do the
same thing and therefore I made the suggestion having no fears
whatever that you would do anything foolish or hasty. Your
last letter has made good my confidence. When you are ready
you may tell me what you think of the suggestion but I feel
confident that you will not until after careful consideration
and faithful communion with Him who holds us in His hands. If
God has already shown you His plans it would be the height of
folly for you to consider any other simply at my suggestion
and I hope you will not hesitate a moment to give your honest
sincere convictions. The worst cannot disappoint me. I have
already left all that has been dear to me for His sake, and
can continue to do so in the future. “My Jesus as thou Wilt”
is the only prayer I wish to offer. I am still planning to go
to Philadelphia in the Fall and if God does not plan otherwise
that is no doubt where I will find myself. The Africa Inland
Mission is progressing very rapidly. Three young ladies went
out last Fall and three married cuples are preparing for the
journey. They are still calling for more workers and I doubt
not but what I could start toward the field before a year
passes by if I felt myself fully prepared. I only wish you
could read a letter printed in their paper which was written
by the leader of the Mission on the field. It almost made me
impatient to think that I could not go at once. I cannot help
but feel more keenly each day my lack of proper preparation
for the work, and I hope God will give me patience to remain
until His appointed time. I am working hard to gain all the
information I possibly can that may be helpful in the future I
am sure that Jesus is leading me gently and tenderly into the
truth as he would have me know it. I get more time for study
than you might perhaps expect. I have spent about $22 for
books since I am here and recently looking over the books I
have read I find that since last Thanksgiving Day I have gone
over nearly four thousand pages of good reading matter.
Sometimes I think I have made almost as much progress as if I
had been in school. I think I almost dare call this a proof
that Christ intended I should remain here. He has been my
teacher in the place of my Professors and under His care I
have been able to make the progress. But now I have written
more than I intended. Sometimes I am almost afraid that you
find running through my letters such a serious strain that you
might think I am getting sad and gloomy but I can assure you
that this is not the case. Sometimes I feel so gay so cheerful
and jolly that I almost get foolish. I can laugh until my
sides ache but these outward expressions can never reveal the
joy I have within. I would not dare to deny that I have my ups
and my downs but underneath it all there is a peace and a joy
which nothing can destroy. I love when out at work to stop
sometimes for a moment and turn my face toward Him and let Him
smile upon me. Oh the joy in His blessed smile. I would not
turn away from His blessed face when He smiles upon me not
even for a moment even if I could feast my eyes upon all the
joys of this world and now to think that we may go on and
increase day by day in this holy joy, increase in His love
this thought causes me more than anything else to press closer
to His bosom. Hoping and praying that this joy may be yours in
an abundant measure I am your true friend
J.W.S.
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