Nassa G.E.A. May 30th 1910.

My dearest Bibi.

        This is Monday. If you thought as much of me yesterday as I did of you then I am sure you have a headache today. As long as I am busy I feel alright but yesterday I felt so dreadfully lonely I felt like crying all day long. Mrs. Sywulka is quite sick and has such a terrible head ache that the house must be kept very quiet and that makes it seem so lonely. She has been in bed ever since we are here and last night her headache was so bad that she kept groaning for a long time. It made me feel dreadful for I could’nt help but think what if you should some time get very sick and I am so far away and you all alone but never mind the time is going by and I will be back before you know it.

        I wrote you we were going to walk from Mwansa to Nassa but we found later that we could get a sail boat from Allidina Visram for Rs. 30 so we took the sail boat but we were two days on the way the wind being most of the time against us. The lake was very rough at times and oh if I was’nt sea sick. I vomited green stuff till I could’nt vomit any more. The boat just swung around like a swing. This would only be for a few hours at a time then it would get smooth again. Still we ate very little on the whole trip. We got here Thurs morning. Thurs afternoon we killed an ox and they gave me the job to hang the meat up to dry. Friday afternoon I cut a road up the hill back of the mission station and Gribble was to build a house on top of the hill while Sylbolka and I were away. We moved our tent up on Sat. to see if there would be any mosquitos up there. We were so sure there would be none that we did not even take our nets along and my if we didnt have a time. There was literally a swarm of mosquitos. We took big doses of quinine the next morning and then to make matters worse while I was dressing I saw a big gray tick sticking on my leg. I pulled him out and dosed the place with permanganate of potash and have felt no results either from tick or mosquitos. Yesterday being Sunday we did not want to move down so slept there again last night and this morning we found a great big black scorpion in our tent. That gave us enough we packed up all our duds and moved down. On Sat. while we were climbing up, up there I killed two scorpions so the place must be full of them. We caught the one this morning and I am going to preserve him and bring him along when I come back. If Mrs. Sylvolka is better we will leave here tomorrow.

        Now as to plans. I found out in Mwansa that the White Fathers are very much interested in us and the Gov. favors them above us. They have applied for a station in Nera where we want a station and unless we are ready to occupy it at once it will be given over to the White Fathers and they wont allow two Missions in the same section. The Gov. man told me if we choose our stations now and do not occupy them we would likely loose all of them because the White Fathers do not want us here. So we are making new plans. We have about decided to cut out our trip to Tabora for which I am awfully glad. and go at once to Nera and begin building a small house and make a garden. After spending a few weeks there we will start a school with a native teacher and move on to the next place. Sylbolka thinks he can take a third place going from Nassa to it with his bicycle. That would give us the three stations we want in Mwansa district or Usukuma. Of course after we have a house on the land they cannot take it away from us. I think we can do all of this in two or three months and then be ready to move on to the North West. If we cant go on, I will come up to Kisumu and meet you and Raymond there and we will make G.E.A. our home although I hope we will not need to do this. Dont send our things to Uganda until I tell you to. I will write you more about this later. I do hope you and Raymond are both well. I am in excellent shape. Never felt better physically. I would give anything to hear Raymond say John Shacocker. Poor little kid. I suppose he will forget all those things until I see him again. I want you to remind him of his daddy every day so he dont forget him and let him look at my picture once in a while that will help him to remember. I tell you if this trip did not mean so very much you would see me come back in a hurry. I feel like doing it sometimes anyhow but I am sure whatever it may cost it will always be a satisfaction to both of us for having had the opportunity of doing so much. Perhaps some day yet we may have the opportunity of going to the Masai and have our good old times again. I could not imagine anything that would make me happier than to be off somewhere with you and Raymond alone again unless it would be that Raymond had someone to play with. It does seem awfully hard to me sometimes that we cant have a home like other people do yet I still have hope that the time is not far off when we need not think any more of living separated and then we will be all the happier for what we have passed through. Dont worry about me. I am taking the best possible care of myself and am surprised to find how easily I can control myself especially in eating. Maybe when I come back you will find me just a dandy man to live with. I wish I could feel satisfied that I had always been that but never mind I am going to try my best to do better. May God help both of us and Raymond is my earnest prayer

        John.

        [from margins] Tues. morning. Have just been to the garden you ought to see the lemons I am sure one could pick 25 bushels in one picking. They are rotting on the ground. I have asked Gribble to pack and send a load to you if you can use them I will send you several loads. We start this afternoon East of Nassa. Mrs. Sylvalka is much better slept nearly all day yesterday. In spite of tick and mosquito bites I am feeling just dandy. I am sure I shall be able to keep well. Oh how I would like to see you this morning. While we were eating breakfast I just imagined how Raymond would say Daddy all gone and I could hardly keep the tears back. But the days are passing by very quickly. I can hardly realize that two weeks are already gone by. Just you keep looking for me and some day I will turn up. If you get discouraged and everything seems to be going wrong just remember I am dying to see you so there must be some good in you yet. I only wish some time I could tell you how much I really do love you. It seems there is no other woman in all this world by [“but”?] just you. Ti itheru. [Kikuyu for “truly” or “sincerely”] I have never said any thing more true

        Your old John.

        Give the enclosed letter to Propst.

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